信心 Confident

我是一个缺乏自信心的人~
总觉得自己真的很平凡，这就是我为我的部落格取名为“平凡的我”的原因。
有时我会怀疑自己是不是真的会唱歌，以后会不会真的能当一位歌手，
有时很讨厌自己对自己的歌声没信心所以只敢一个人时候大声唱歌或者有朋友陪唱时才敢大声唱。小学参加过无数的歌唱比赛但只要一站到舞台上就会发抖，最后就是水准，结果都没拿奖。
中学后就一直没敢参加歌唱比赛~因为我害怕，好害怕又再次失望好怕自己忘词和走音。
很多朋友说我唱歌真的很好听，我分不清哪些是安慰的话还是真心话。
相反的我家人都不爱听我唱歌，他们都说我没有音乐细胞，不适合唱歌~
除了我爸爸，每次他在电视看到歌唱比赛都会鼓励我去参加，真的很谢谢他支持我^^
他是在家里唯一一个不反对我做歌手的人。。。。
钢琴和小提琴都是我一直想要学的乐器，因为我不想我只会唱歌我还想学学乐器。。。但经济不允许~
还记得小时候时常会羡慕那些能学唱歌的人~有一次妈妈带我到歌唱中心报名~但后来都没上到去~
我很希望总有一天能克服紧张和没信心的缺点~那么我就不会再失水准了~我还不确定明年是否真的会参加新秀大赛~因为会唱歌的不只是我~还有更多的参赛者都会跳舞和乐器~而且做歌手评审要看样子的~但我好像全部都没有=(

距离

最近觉得和身边的朋友的距离越来越远了~原因我也不知道，就连在班和我最亲密的朋友也是这样。。。感觉和她开始渐渐疏远了~我们之间不像从前那么多话~排队也是分开排~还记得以前因为小小的误会而没做朋友一段时间，直到去年同班时感情又变回以前那么好了~最近我们到底怎么了？

我只知道，我需要朋友的爱和温暖！！！

幸福的我♥

14/10 a special day for me,cuz tat day is my birthday=D
wow...so happy^^but still need to sit for the last day exam...
Miya,Ting,Corrine,Joey n Izzy sang a birthday song to me during recess..
but tat day i was felt a little bit unwell,i bought turtle bread to eat,as my birthday cake=]
When i back home,my mum scold me again....she forgot my birthday...Dissapointed=(
I receive many wishs from friends..haha..thank you♥


16/10 a most wonderful n memorable night!Tat is joey n my birthday party!
we reached ting's house at 7.30p.m,all of them are waiting for us...so paiseh,but i know the reason why miya n corrine was late...
When we reached ting's house,we blew the candle on the cake,and they sang a birthday song for us,but we had not enough time to eat the cake,because the boss of Beacon Point was calling us...so we went to the restaurant 1st~
Corrine n Miya want me sit aik boon's car...yudan sit infront n mig en n me sit behind...
He was hurt in an accident...but he still try his best to attend my party,felt suprise when i saw him....
aik boon was drove so fast...i felt scare!
after having our dinner,we take a lot of picture=]hahaha...so happy...i had upload all the pictures on my facebook...
we back to ting's house again because we have not eat the birthday cake...they sang birthday song again!this time they sang eng,mandarin,cantonese,korea n bahasa's birthday song for us,we blew the candle again...haha...the cake is delicious,expecially the ice-cream cake~
before i back,i had recieve a lot of present from my friends...

Miya,corrine,Joey n Ting brought me a photo frame with their photo n my photo,thy also brought me a cute bear table lamp(so cute^^)
Izzy,Andre,Ming En were brought me a set of cosmetic n fake eyelash...but i dont know how to use it...i will try me best to learn=)
Li xin,Jenny,Wei Shin n yin Kuan brought me ear ring n a ribbon hair clip...
Thanks For All the Present!My Friends n Buddys=D I LOVE YOU~

when i back home,i was surfing facebook~
suddenly miya was tag me in a video~
i was cry when i click into the video~it is a video for joey n me...
there are a lot of wishs from friends!they says happy birthday to us...
Izzy's drawing is nice!corrine is soooo cute!Miya performs funny dance...haha...
I really want to thanks Miya made this video for me n joey~
And i want to thanks Corrine,Izzy,Ting,Yin kuan,Yumi,Christine,Hui Jia,wei Shin,Li Xin,Alvin,Aik Boon,Kanes,andre,ming en and all the friends in the video~
Because of all of you,i am having an unforgettable n sweeeeeet 17's birthday♥

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Felt tired today...just finish add maths exam....
I hate tis subject!!!!!
everytime i get the question i cnt write out anythings!
erm....nothing to write....
lastly i would like to wish ye sheng~HAPPY BIRTHDAY^^


My Birthday also coming soon....i hope i will be very very very happy on my Birthday=]

LavenDar

yeah~as the title says~i have change a new name'LavenDar'
because when my old name read faster it will be pikaciu~
><....i dont wan my name become pikaciu~so i decided to change my name to Lavendar~ but many ppl misunderstand tis name~they though tis is a flower's name~ Lavendar n Lavender almost have the same spelling~
SO MY FRIENDS....PLS DONT MISUNDERSTAND AGAIN...THX FOR UR COORPARATION=]

0 缺点

她叫miya tao~对我来说她是一个0缺点的女人~

她无论身材和样貌都完美极了~是我的女神~哈哈哈哈。。。。

♥

今天本来打算去jusco买joey的礼物的~去到那里miya和corrine说去唱k。。。

哈哈。。在里面唱得很开心~我们一直唱唱不停。。。

不久joey也来join我们了~她一进到来就乱点歌~点到那些我们不会唱的歌，

而且那些歌名都有关联~笑死我们~哈哈哈哈哈~

唱完歌后我们就大家一起拍大合照~临走前还不忘和kbox校草一起拍照呢~哈哈哈~

回家的路上发生了一些小意外~可是却很多人下车八！真的很讨厌这些人！

期待

哇！感觉好久没上来了。。。
有时候的确有点懒惰打字的。。哈哈哈。。。
好啦~现在来说说最近所发生的事~


最近我学校又举办了讨人厌的考试'GERAK GEMPUR'
walao~真的很厌倦考试了~其他学校可以在班上讨论或带回家做，可是我们却要像考试那样做！
可是。。。根本没人在乎。。。哈哈。。。
但我还是很在乎我的英文，因为我一定要拿A


现在要说些开心的事了，
16/10我的朋友们要帮我和祖仪庆生~
哈哈。。。听到这消息后我超开心的。。。因为第一次有那么多朋友和我一起庆生~
可惜雅君说她不想来………………我也不懂为什么…………


从来我的人缘都很普通~有时会很羡慕那些人缘很好的人~
他们无论到哪里都认识很多人~也很容易结交到朋友~
而我认识的人和朋友都很少~通常都是学校的朋友而已~
我也不懂为什么我很难交到朋友~很多人都说刚认识我时会觉得我难以接近，
认识我后却觉得我很傻~可能我是外冷内热的类型吧~也可能是我人缘一般的原因。
不过我经常对自己说：真心知己不需要多。

刚刚听到一个蛮惊讶的消息~
雅君和我说她和boon分手了~我听后也没太大反应~
因为我觉得既然两个人一起了就尽情地相爱，同时也要做好分手的准备~
毕竟天长地久的爱情真的得来不易呀~哈哈~说到好像很有经验酱。。。
我依然相信时间久了大家还是能做回朋友~


嘿嘿……我发现我越来越喜欢弹钢琴的男生了。。。
最近看了王力宏“你不知道的事”的mv。。。他在那mv里特别帅。。。
可能是弹钢琴的关系吧~

好了~这次就写到这里~下次再来这里写下我的心事~
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